the invetiable

It's a question that will haunt me till the end of time; why? Why did this happen or why did they do this? Human behavior is like the weather. We try and predict both. It has happen most this year where i think the person will do one thing and does a complete 180. It's like i have them figured out, but oh wait they decided to have a makeover over night. The most concern is why? If only mind reading existed and wasn't just a tool Hollywood uses to sell tickets.

The reason for all of this is a guy of course. One day they're paying all their attention on me, and the next its like we haven't talked in years. By now I should be use to it since its been going on for about two months, but I can't just turn on and off my emotions like a light switch, but apparently men can. He tells me I am beautiful and the next day nothing. Not a text or a phone call. I ask to hangout and he says yes and then changes his mind ten minutes later.

A change is coming; it feels like it does when its ready to rain, now its just time to wait. I'm ready with my umbrella, for whatever may come.

its all coming out

Assumption, everyone does it. Most of the time it is untrue, but sometimes people are right on target. I am in a dilemma of assuming on peoples emotions. “What are they thinking,” I ask myself. Do I see the signs right, or am I misinterpreting the signs. Are there signs at all or am I just delusional. The fact that I am second guessing my self is not a good indication of self assurance. Do they like me is the question everyone asks one another. Sometimes we miss what is right in front of us. We overlook the good in the people that are right there, always there for us. We are a bunch of toddlers that want something one minute and then something else the next. Where does it end?
When will I be happy with what I have instead of wanting the impossible?